I am

 

I am the Divine Knowing itself.

I am the divine knowing itself, love.

So are you.

Concious of openness I stand in that knowing.

I pledge to thank all moments for thier happening and relax into wonder.

Hanging in the vastness I float.

Yet I cling like a tenuous thread to the heaviness of the surface.

I sputter forth making violent waves in the stillness that surrounds us all and the between that blankets every thing.

 

I am awkward not graceful,  though I know in my soul I am grace embodied.

I weave back and forth from the shared reality space and my reality and it leads to a disconnected imbalance.

Breathe.

Focus on the breath.

Close eyes

In and

Out.

In

And

 

 

Out.

 

I feel awareness of my arms compressing my legs on top as the weight braces the floor making the bottoms of my feet flatten, widen. The edges tinge some resistance to the shoving…  yet it is none the less pleasant.

 

Habits are what we do.

Yet I find myself in a sea of habits I do not approve of and do not like, respect or want within my own self.

Accept they are there. Breathe until Release. Focus on what you do want. Relax towards what I seek. I am all, I am open. I am the canvas and I allow myself to be brushed open by life’s drawing of expectations.

 

I am the expectation. I am the dawning of my new day. I do feel the beauty in relaxed triumph. I do make my own life and luck and I do reap what I sow. I swallow what feels better and tastes better. I relax open my uncertainty. I feel comfortable in what I find utterly wrong and inappropriate because I feel at home within myself and myself… Because there is a way to access what is needed in the moment –  breathe. Be aware to do what is said. Be what is said. See it thru it.

 

I feel like I’m uttering the babbling of rambling mad women. Yet, there is magic in the syllables I cannot dispute. Low to be honest. I will, I meditate instead of turning on a television. I wonder at how more relaxed, more alive, more grounded and inviting my life has become. Had become. Did become. I feel it. I please it. Yes. Yes. Yes

 

I am grateful for my struggles. For my pain for it allows me to dig deep and find my own way. I am grateful for learning how to connect and live a new way. A different way. A better, more loving and effective way. I am giving myself my own love. I am giving you all love while giving myself love. I have been neglecting my life, my loves. I have been making excuses for not being who I love, with who I love. Of who I love. I love. I love. I love.

 

 

I have been lost in my mind heart life. I need a soul alive with love as my life. I am. I want. I am alive with love. I am loving. I am loving. I am doing love. I am being love. I am being loved. I am a loving being. I am going where love is. I am where the love is. I am the love that is. I am seeing, feeling myself be the love that is all. I am all. I am love. It is basic math- all is one. All is love.