Me. Every word. And as free and fully alive as I feel, it’s really heavy sometimes, because feeling connected is hard when I Know I have outgrown the mental-emotional limitations and perspectives of those who I was once so intertwined with… I feel isolated often by how I have outgrown all that once was key in the definition of my… Read more →
Category: epiphanies
The ache leads to surrender and forgiveness….
What type of parent doesn’t even bother to try to see their pregnant child for Xmas, yet only pesters that child for the money he essentially forced her to spend to fund an extra long skiing, Xmas and NYE (and beyond) trip with the other child and her significant other for the 2nd? 3rd year in a row? (Yes, I… Read more →
It’s been a while… *update in progress* +food combining Alder Brooke *horn toot*
Recently I got so dehydrated from puking that I had to go to an emergency room for iv fluids. However, the iv they put in was really badly placed and the first medicine they gave me made me worse for the next 24+ hours til my barely conscious self was so forthright with the Dr. prescribing to me that whatever… Read more →
Diary: Nov.21st, 2015
I wax poetic about everything. My life, the state of the world, politics… it adds the glimmer of hope to every dark corner, reminds me that shadows are vehicles of the light. My mornings are times of great struggle and exhaustion pulls at my every thought though the day. I’m only in my second trimester, the time when literally what… Read more →
Live Wreckless Divine Mindset
I have collected a wonderful array of memes from my years on fb, I will be uploading them for your enjoyment weekly. Also keep an eye out for paintings and prints, writings from my blog and interesting articles I have found through my days. I hope they bring you the clarity of thought and help you focus your mental directions… Read more →
I’ve been 28 a week, today: 750words- transparency: 06/28/15
The feelings and words that swirl inside of me, deafen me with the cacophony of contradicting, mutually valid experiential perspectives. My entire existence begins and extends from my perceptions established by my mind, my decisions, my choices to give into my egotistical self belittling tapes or to recognize them, press pause before I can even begin to start reciting along… Read more →
I’m done.
That moment when I realized both my Dad and my Mom chose my Dad’s gf over me. I’m done. F*ck a family that has never allowed me feel at home or safe or seen or loved. F*ck family who has used my openness and empathy to mistreat, torture and write me off my whole life. I’m done. NO MORE. My… Read more →
It’s the first time
It’s the first time K and I have ever been apart since he moved out to Oregon at the beginning of last summer. We had been planning for this since I had been craving alone time, time in solitude with myself for a long while. It’s interesting though, my longing for him did not allow me much solitude. For the… Read more →