There is no resistance to my withdrawing. I am so well practiced in stepping back and into myself my life is built around this freedom- to be just me, just myself. I have so immersed myself in this surrender for years now- I wanted to fully embrace all the singularity of “who is Artemis Walden” for a couple decades now-… Read more →
Agasping awe.
What is the point of it all? I guess this question isn’t really what I am asking, for I long since reached the conclusion that life is whatever I make it to be. This tilts so much responsibility on to my attention and focus. I manifest my life. Through every inventing vibration intentional or not. Listen, I tell myself. Pause.… Read more →
Daily #1
I have been distant, lost in the maze of nausea every day. I feel paralyzed by the sweeping sensation that makes me feel lost in my own skin. The studying I have done for years tells me to surrender into the feelings, to the point that Kyle has even started to reflect this understanding back to me. In the wash… Read more →
I’ve outgrown what once was my life…
Me. Every word. And as free and fully alive as I feel, it’s really heavy sometimes, because feeling connected is hard when I Know I have outgrown the mental-emotional limitations and perspectives of those who I was once so intertwined with… I feel isolated often by how I have outgrown all that once was key in the definition of my… Read more →
The ache leads to surrender and forgiveness….
What type of parent doesn’t even bother to try to see their pregnant child for Xmas, yet only pesters that child for the money he essentially forced her to spend to fund an extra long skiing, Xmas and NYE (and beyond) trip with the other child and her significant other for the 2nd? 3rd year in a row? (Yes, I… Read more →
*rant* I need many, many hugs.
Every morning recently I wake up feeling overwhelmed by stress, even though, I do manage to feel better by about mid-day/evening. The constant headache from temple pressure from stress is a special type of h*ll since I can’t really take anything for pain without wondering if I’m hurting my little one… This has been going on my entire life, mornings… Read more →
I have a celeb crush?? what?!
I do not often develop crushes on celebrities… my only real long standing celebrity crush being Matt Damon… (and OH my after seeing his performance in The Martian my crush and adorance has been amplified exponentially!) I realize that this is because my attraction to even a celebrity is built over time, watching their mannerisms and ways of being both… Read more →
Would you let your kids speak to others like Donald Trump speaks to people?
Would you let your kids speak to others like Donald Trump speaks to people??????!! Come on. REALLY?! DONALD TRUMP IS THE LAST PERSON WE NEED AS PRESIDENT OF THIS COUNTRY! HE IS LIKE A PETULANT, BRATTY, NEVER BEEN TOLD TO THINK BEFORE SPEAKING CHILD WHO HAPPENS TO BE THE “RICHEST” BULLY ON THE PLAYGROUND! What the f*ck is with the… Read more →
It’s been a while… *update in progress* +food combining Alder Brooke *horn toot*
Recently I got so dehydrated from puking that I had to go to an emergency room for iv fluids. However, the iv they put in was really badly placed and the first medicine they gave me made me worse for the next 24+ hours til my barely conscious self was so forthright with the Dr. prescribing to me that whatever… Read more →
Diary: Nov.21st, 2015
I wax poetic about everything. My life, the state of the world, politics… it adds the glimmer of hope to every dark corner, reminds me that shadows are vehicles of the light. My mornings are times of great struggle and exhaustion pulls at my every thought though the day. I’m only in my second trimester, the time when literally what… Read more →